November 21, 2016

Dear Baby,

It’s been a while. I’ll get to the explanation of my absence in a future post but suffice to say, you’ll understand. In the meantime, you are going through quite a time right now where I would best describe you as a hot mess. 

It began with my leap alarm. Leap number 9 from Wonder Weeks alerted me that we should expect some “cranky behaviour.” TO. SAY. THE. LEAST. 

What is so shitty about you being cranky is that it is so opposite how you usually are that it feels like I am living with a different baby. You are never cranky and rarely cry so when you do, it really hits us. 

And cry you have. 

There’s been tears and so much snot. 

Because you are getting more teeth (we suspect your molars) and because you are sick and because you are just officially walking. It’s a perfect storm of wonder and a recipe for one over stimulated, sore and sad baby. 

Last night, for the first time in probably months, you were up and needing consoling for several hours of the early morning. I can’t remember the last time we had to shift work being up with you in the middle of the night. 

And if you could shove those tiny hands further into your mouth to ease your tooth pain, you would try. It’s a little bit heartbreaking to watch. 

The good news is that (minus the cold) this is all about you growing! Walking is amazing and I can’t wait for us to be able to really walk together and molars are amazing too! You can eat even more food. 

Change is often pretty uncomfortable so it’s good to try and focus on the light at the end of the tunnel- and there will always be light. Nothing is forever and like so many things in your life, this will pass and you won’t even remember the weeks that you chewed on your crib rails for relief. 

Keep growing. I’m here to help you (even at 4am)

xo

Mom