August 1, 2017

Dear Baby,

This past month has been insane, to say the least. When I imagined having 2 kids I pictured a blissful family scene with baby strapped casually on my in a hippy wrap and you singing songs in your stroller as we promenaded down the street.

Reality is baby 2 is a fucking maniac who screams bloody murder at any given moment, I am just finally able to walk after a shitty recovery and taking you both out is a rare and often catastrophic occurrence that scares me.

So the point is that I've been absent on all fronts but including this blog. Sorry.

Here's the honest truth about having it all. You can't. You can't be a perfect mom to 2 humans, a good wife, a great daughter, a fun sister or an available friend all at once. Often with no sleep it's hard to even be one of these things.

This is advice that is better given than taken by me but you can't beat yourself up if and when you fail. Not being able to do everything does not make you a loser (in spite of how you might feel like one every 10 seconds of every day).

With that in mind I want to propose a radical idea to you. I had planned to create a fully separate blog for Baby 2 so you didn't have to share but writing 2 blog posts per day is never going to happen. We will be lucky if we can do one per week so can you share?

Can I document you both here now? I mean, you did get a year all to yourself so I don't think it's totally unreasonable to ask. Plus if not for having to pump my boobs 3 times a day to feed your sister I would literally never have time to write, it seems fair to give her some enjoyment from said writing.

Because when you have so many balls in the air this is what you do: you find ways to minimize and make efficiencies. You find ways to juggle with just your own 2 hands and you do the best you can.

So to my 2 babies, I love you. Welcome to Baby 2.

xo
Mom