Developing those baby muscles

July 4, 2016

Dear Baby,

We’ve gone through a lot of new things these past few weeks. New teeth, new skills and brand new sights. It’s been a whirlwind and I’m sure you little brain is just firing off like crazy with all the new things it is taking in. 

It’s really crazy to go back and watch your old videos (old- like all of 4 months ago) where you are just beginning to de-blob. We lost our fucking minds the first time you rolled over onto you stomach from your back and when you reached out to grab something I just about died. 

Now those days seem like distant memories left in the dust you rustle up from crawling at the speed of light across the floor. Just kidding. More like snail pace but still. 

I almost forget just how hard you worked to just be able to put your tiny foot into your mouth. 

Now here you are crawling away and standing up on everything you can grab onto. You’ve even begun to practice letting go and seem to give zero fucks about falling on your ass. 

I know one day when you are an adult and performing all these skills as though you were born with them I may get cloudy on the detail of when you first pulled yourself up to standing etc. But I think that warrants the following thought:

Don’t forget where you come from. People grow and change all the time. It is one of the best parts of being a human but it is important not to dismiss what brought you to any given point, what shaped you and what drove you. These re all the facets of you and they are important if not relevant. 

In the meantime, going to watch some videos of the first time you found your hands. The same ones you are currently using to scratch the shit out of my chest. Thanks for that. 

xo

Mom

Developing those baby muscles

Happy Canada Day, Baby

July 1, 2016

Dear Baby,

It’s a celebration of our great country and we plan to spend the weekend being pretty celebratory. We will be seeing family and friends and heading up to the cottage to enjoy Canada’s finest views by the lake.

I have been thinking how very fortunate we are to live in a country where we have so much privilege. Health care and social services only just begin the list of luxuries we are afforded just for having been born in the true north strong and free.

One thing that has been on my mind a lot lately is mat leave. As a self employed mama, I don’t have the looming (or relieving) back-to-work date that many of my fellow moms do. I am not furiously arranging your schedule and day care arrangements and I am not stressing over leaving you coming off a year long adventure together. My plans (which are a whole other story to tell) include working and being with you so while I have to work out that balance, I don’t have to work out anything else.

And the truth is that while I can understand how a lot of working moms either want or have to go back to work for a variety of reasons, I cannot imagine parting ways with you in just a few months. I would be sick.

And that is considering that here in our great country we get the opportunity for a full year of paid maternity leave. That is about 9 months more than most people in our neighbouring country.

Coming on to 10 months of this first year together I can safely say that I don’t judge or think badly of anyone who doesn’t or can’t take it but it is the most invaluable experience that I have ever had and I wouldn’t trade a minute of it for anything.

So in recognition of the amazing services that our country affords us- I leave you with this: be grateful and thankful that you were born here in this great place where you will have great things just because you live here. This is never something to forget or take for granted.

Plus, as you will see this weekend, Summers here are the best things ever. Lake living is the shit!

xo

Mom

 

Happy Canada Day, Baby